RUN not to gain strength or to loose weight,
run for the sheer pleasure of it;
DRAW not to sell it or to post it on facebook,
draw for the sheer pleasure of it;
TRAVEL not to leave something behind or to find something new,
Travel for the sheer pleasure of it;
LOVE not to be with someone or to miss someone,
love for the sheer pleasure of it;
WORK not for the money or the company,
work for the sheer pleasure of it;
LEARN Yoga not to be enlightened or to be flexible,
learn for the sheer pleasure of it;
Although having too much pleasure is bad and this life is supposed to be rough, tough, unforgiving, and full of miseries but have some fun meanwhile for the sheer pleasure of being ALIVE!
Of course I am an idiot, stupid, jealous, liar, angry, fool,egoistic, lazy and late sometimes..
I too have prejudice about people I meet and I also suffer from over confidence and loose control of my tongue.
And I am sorry for that. It’s not me it’s the programming.. ( from the movie Tomorrowland), I am built that way. That’s the excuse most often used and I also know it never actually works.
Now why I am saying this? Not so funny story… I was writing a software program a few days ago and I had to make a small change in the workflow but as it turns out it got messed up and then a software glitch cost me two days of work which almost ruined my day and weekend. Took me a while but I did fix it quicker than the last time as I knew every problem I faced last time.
What got me thinking is the fact that a simple virtual mistake had such an impact on my mood, thoughts and sleep for few days I cannot imagine what would have been your condition when I did something wrong to you in real life. Didn’t seemed bigger to me but it could have meant a whole lot to you!
So here I am not just saying sorry but completely owning up my mistakes and if I can do anything to fix it. It will be my honor and privilege.
Expecting a long list of things to do now..:-)
On a positive note I was watching a Harvard graduate speaking about intrinsic value…something which cannot be lost nor gained. It’s something which is always there. I believe I do have some intrinsic values which no matter what would never fade away 🙂 Trust me!
In the mean time monsoon is here and I am on my bike most of the time chasing clouds…. literally!
Had a minor accident which could have been terrible if my bike wouldn’t have saved my bones. I am slowly getting back into programming mode. Something I did way back in 2007 and then lost it completely in between. Took me a while and a whole lot of wisdom from my guardian angels but I think I can say I am pretty much back in the game now. I guess I shouldn’t have left it in the first place but similar to other mistakes I am glad I had a chance to correct it. As the famous Silicon Valley line goes ” Code hard and play harder” I may be able to spend my time pretty well when I am on vacations. And talking about that; one is just down the line. Lots of thoughts about which place to head next… Maybe Nepal.
Until next time..
Mahendra, Alejandro, Mahi, Mahendy and the Dragon kid 🙂
You all know what meditation really is… in the most non Sanskrit words it is just calming your mind down but strangely enough calming your mind is like trying to bend the spoon as in the movie “Matrix” no matter how hard you try… that’s not happening. Least you can do is to be happy about the fact that while trying to bend the spoon you cleaned up your kitchen (mind).
Now why am I talking about spoons here? well nothing in particular I just have two of them and would like to use them for long.
Back to the real Matrix…. Last week was kind of a turmoil. That happens all the time in tech world. Out of no where you are stuck with a few lines of code for days. I was practically staring at 15 lines of code for the entire week to find bugs in them. The only relief was lunch at Divya Sir’s place. Trust me when I say I ate like a pig.. I really did.
Bhagavad Gita says you need leave your body and think from a different perspective when you handle any difficult situation and to do that you need peace of mind therefore I turned off my computers, Wifi and cell phone for most part of the days and also deactivated my Facebook account briefly in order to stay as relaxed as ever and I did slept for long.
And luckily enough I finally got the algorithm sorted out and a job contract with awesome perks. However in the mean time my phone must have got a ton of curse words for being silent and not responding to any calls. Apart from a few calls from loved ones I don’t regret leaving my phone behind in the room. It’s one of those things which makes me believe that no matter what I am still a human who likes normal face to face conversation. That reminds me of a 70 years old security guard I met 2 days back after almost 3 years. A genuine smile and a few words were all we needed to catch up. We don’t even know each others name but he knows more about me than most of my Facebook friends plus we rarely chat.
Everyone is bound to get in trouble at some point or other but in those times it’s best to turn off your internet and move out in sun, rain and in cold the world would be more real and small. It’s definitely not running away but focusing on the real issue rather than what’s happening in Yemen.
From the beginning of the development sprint there were a whole lot of problems personal, professional but I believe that happiness is worth sharing and problems are worth fighting for. You would never hear any problems from me unless you are the one I need help from.
Coming back to meditation this is what meditation and radio silence actually means and it’s effects.
( credits: Marcia Dominguez)
PS: Just got this picture from my lovely friend Jiaranai. I managed to make chapatis not in India but in Thai.
Before making any points I would like to make sure that no one gets too serious about it. I am not a doctor, psychologist, teacher, nutritionist or a dietitian; I am just a normal IT guy.
Recently I had my first kiwi ( oh god! thank you Elena) and my first soy milk ( thank you Ramnik ji) and then a thought came to my mind. The kiwi and the soy milk didn’t just satisfied my stomach but it satisfied the hell out of me. It was so delicious that I would spent all my savings on just Kiwis.
No matter how disgusting it may look. As long as my brain gets all the nutrients… I don’t care!
The point is; sometimes you can eat a whole lot of stuff but you still feel that something was missing on the contrary you eat something in a very small quantity but you feel like the thirst from eternity just ended. Now that’s what I call nutrition for the brain.
It doesn’t necessarily means food but anything can be the best nutrition your brain ever had. Maybe..
- a small bike ride in the rain
- a short game of cricket
- soccer with childhood friends
- watching a very old classic movie all over again
- dance with your loved ones
- getting compliments from your teachers
- finishing up a long due task
- watching a kid smile
- watching a kid dance
- feeling the wind blowing through the window
- zooming across the highway in top speed
And perhaps a lot more than that.. Thats just my list you can add yours in the comment section.
And when nothing works meditation is the booster dose you need fellas!
Just to make sure I am not talking about the public holiday “May Day” nor the emergency protocol used by mariners, pilots and security personals all around the globe but a personal emergency! It’s been long I took a lot of decisions based on the circumstances and going with the wind but not anymore!
From this day onwards there will be no more discussions, no more debate, no more confusions. It’s just reading, studying, planning, working and hard-coding.
I have always lived up to my morals and ethics but in the mean time rested for a long time now; it time now to join the big leagues and start competing.
And of course I will keep laughing in the mean process, never gonna leave my strength!
“Let the shameless self promotion begin” one of the most unique and genuine quotes I ever came across. This is by one of my NON FACEBOOK friends, Sarah Gormen. She is one of the most amazing brainstormers I ever met. Brilliant ideas and a lot of skills. Globetrotter, and of course a lady with genuine smile all the time.. – very rare!
With my 19 years of experience with computers and a lot of work experience too, I know very well that the stuff you see on Facebook, twitter, Google+ are mostly for publicity / promotion. And among this a lot of genuine people, feeds, news disappear.
You don’t believe me?? Ok. let me give you an example. The feeds you see on your facebook homepage depends on the time and the popularity of the post. For example your friend posted a very old picture of you and him together. But because your other friends posted something else with a lot of people tagged on it. and companies posted their own feeds. You missed to see that. Unless your friend tagged you, or you dig a lot deeper in facebook feeds.
This happens everywhere in Media, Google news, Twitter “Trends”. I don’t know where to find genuine people. Perhaps, there is no website left which boasts of genuine people and no publicity. It’s obvious no one would ever built anything which won’t be publicized.
But then again, let me give you a perfect example. “Google”. It’s a fact that Google never publicized it’s SEARCH ENGINE, never started any add campaign for “Google Search” . It was totally word of mouth.
What I think is, when you have a real killer product, something top notch or something unique. You don’t need publicity. Everyone else will publicize for you.
PS: You may want to exclude books, or stories or any other content from writers and Artists etc. Cause, a story isn’t worth anything if people don’t know about it. Bible is the most famous book in history. Because it is the most shared book in history.
Best Wishes and keep me posted haha 🙂
Perhaps via email or post cards ( If you wish).
There are certain moments in life when you are bound to be happy. Happiness is the most contagious thing in the world. When you are happy people around you are happy.
Well, the other day I was very happy about two things completely different from each other.
1. I got an offer to work with my American mom, well technically I don’t work in the field of computers.. I play with it and my American mom says “when someone gives you something, say thank you! – it’s an american way”. So here I say- THANK YOU MOM!
2. The second reason was a personal goal of mine which I achieved and I am damn proud of my self.
I have lived through times of great sorrow and darkness.. Mahendra was nothing! I am glad that those days are over and it’s time for the king. As my name means ” the Lord of the Kings”. I guess the king is back in his kingdom.
This question haunts every student when he/she returns from school. There is nothing wrong in the question asked by parents everyday? Actually this is the question we should ask ourselves. Learning is a continuous process and it doesn’t have any age restriction.
We should ask this
what did you learned today?
question everyday and try to answer it as genuinely as possible. This would make us self confident and when you have doubt about your capabilities you can check it out and get some relief.
I have planned to blog about the things I HAVE LEARNED TODAY.