When the worst possibly tragedy ripped my world apart.. during those times.. every single word which my family and friends said mattered a lot. I am eternally grateful to everyone who called, sent text messages etc during that phase.
It’s been almost 4 months now and with time life is getting back to normal. And I am back into writing blogs and hacking my way into different programming languages.
You look for the purpose and for your heart;
but you have the delusion of knowing your vision and you feel smart;
Deep inside you know you need to restart;
when everything you care falls apart;
The morals you once stood for seems far fetched in the corporate chart;
Family, friends and health usually takes the last spot in your life’s cart;
then it’s time to find the real purpose of your life!
Everyday I wake up knowing that there are a small number of people for whom my efforts / work / presence might bring in a smile on their faces that’s more than enough to keep me running through the day.
Now why all of a sudden I am talking about Purpose in life? Well it’s because some people everyday for years but we hardly know them and then there are some we met for hours / days and they leave an impression for life. Some you watch movie with, drive your bike with, share a meal with, share a trip with .. and with some you share your family with.
Someone you share a meal with…
Here comes my friends Anders and Eng Chew whom I knew for a few days while they were in India but here in Singapore they showed me the real side of this magnificent,lively country. Words would fall short for their hospitality and care. This adorable couple makes me realize that it’s not the bureaucrats but the citizens who are the real ambassadors of their country! Roaming around the streets with them listening to stories, cherishing ice creams and watching the City from top is something I would tell my kids about someday! And yes I need a Singapore flag now!
Someone you share family with……..
I remember calling my brother in law for the first time with some motivation from my friend Kira years ago and after that perhaps this is the longest time I have spend time with him, my Sister and my Niece. I am not a person who likes to talks on Phone or message; I talk when I am in in front. And of course I cannot write about family…it’s simply family (period). But yes my sister made the right choice plus I have someone to look up to now 🙂
Leaving Singapore is difficult… here I have family and an extended family. I haven’t turned on my laptop for work for days and it feels weird but in a good way! Perhaps this is the purpose of life : To be human at-least for sometime. May God bless us all with grace and love we all need every single day!
Through the sands of time I remember the Ujjain trip we went all together;
It reminds me of the game of badminton in the mesmerizing evening weather;
It may have been almost an year but your memories are crisp as a feather;
May god bless you with life filled with happiness, health, prosperity and peace inside yourself..no need to look further ;
Happy Birthday Chris.. Hope you had a great day today..There is one Spanish tradition about birthdays I know. People pull your ears for every single year till now. Hoping to get a chance to pull your ear someday.. 🙂 Best wishes and you are missed!
First time I met was on the dinner table;
From then on it’s nothing but a fable;
You made my submission to the elephant Journal impeccable;
You have pulled my ear more than anyone else in this world and made my birthday memorable;
I would be wrong if I say I miss you…I don’t; but I do know that somewhere in the cold Ireland someone is keeping bananas in refrigerator and finds the mere mention of this adorable!
Manchu ji there are somedays when it gets hard not to miss you….. today is the day! Wish you lived closer and I could see Soraya!
Considering my friends are from varied fields it’s quite difficult to choose between them. They are either Engineers, Doctors, Bankers, Writers, Dancers, Actors, Politicians, Yogis, Farmers, Teachers or a Soldiers.
Now why this thought came into my mind? or perhaps in your mind?
We see so much of what other people are doing? where they are going? with whom they are going? how much money they are making? what car they traveling in? etc etc; by the end of the day we question ourselves that what the hell we are doing to compete with them?
We forget the most basic thing in friendship..technically we didn’t made friends to compete with each other but to complete each other. ( My principal said that long back). We made friends because we had a thing with each other. That particular thing is very hard to define ( can be one in a million reason).
Competition is good in fact that’s the reason we have the Olympics but people forget that it’s not about fighting with your opponent it’s about the gold which matters the most. Athletes have no personal reasons to hate or love each other they do it for the sake of the gold. Apparently that should be the way; you must compete all the time but not with your friend on Facebook but for the goal you have in your mind “The virtual Gold medal”. Your friend might be sharing the same goal with you but it’s definitely not a competition with him.
At least this is what I learnt from the Olympics. So next time when I am thinking about you I am not thinking about competing with you but I am trying to learn from you by being you.
And to answer the question although I cannot be you I can still try to be your friend in the best possible you.
For all those people who know me well I m not the person who would go to a temple everyday or even for months. I sincerely believe that God lives everywhere and the most important temple is the one you see when you close your eyes. But sometimes even closing your eyes won’t help.
So while coming back from dinner a mere thought came in my mind about visiting a temple after all it’s been long. It’s the environment which makes it the place it is supposed to be. Coming back I thought maybe it’s only by divine intervention I would be able to make some decisions which are in my mind for a very long time. I have been looking to do something crazy and insane enough to be called as my job.
And just when I was supposed to shut down my computers and sleep I saw a book borrowed from my friend. I was supposed to read it while on a 40 hours train ride but I didn’t. ( This happens when you have a laptop and tons of movies to watch.) Something tells me maybe it’s time to start reading that book and I did. Turns out it is something I actually needed for long. Paulo Coelho has been my favourite since “The Alchemist”, he continues to be the best. So technically I am not saying there is God or not but somehow someone always looks after you whenever needed and sometimes you might just need to ask.
To finish off here is an extract from the book.
A pencil has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on to them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.
1. You are Capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is hand guiding your steps.
2. Now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpener. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he’s much sharper.
3. The pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing;
4. What really matters in a pencil is not it’s wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.
And this reminds me of a project I got involved in when one of my friend posted a message on FB about a book sharing activity. I rarely get involve in activities which are on FB, but perhaps I might give it a try.
You won a debate, you won an argument,
but lost… a friend in the heat of a moment;
You got the ice-cream, you got the chocolate cake,
but lost a sibling in the heat of a moment;
You got the promotion, you got the contract,
but lost your partner in the heat of a moment;
You got to travel the world, you got to live the dream,
but lost your love in the heat of a moment;
There are many things in life we loose or gain in a moment. Sometimes we are proud of it till eternity and sometimes we regret it every single day but one day you would be sitting on a beach wondering what if those moments could have been a bit different.
This reminds me of a famous dialogue of Dumbledore from the movie potter in which he says, words are the most inexhaustible source of magic capable of both inflicting injury and remedy. So no matter how tense the situation is, no matter how worse the argument goes, no matter how heated the conversation becomes… there is always a probability of finding a mango especially during the hot Indian summer. Forget everything and start savouring the mango we’ll get to the discussion later on.
Personally speaking…. things have gone out of hands, words have been said out of bounds, situations went out of control but what hurts the most are the pity things which started it.
Everyone knows that IT jobs are mostly “sit on a chair for 8-9 hours” job. You do nothing except staring at the screen and punching keyboard. Although there are magical moments every now and then but soon the magic fades away…..
So here I am trying to take a leap of faith in finding something interesting, cool, adventurous and yet IT. Pretty hard to find something like that and I might have to create something new..but then if Donald Trump can be a presidential candidate I can do anything in the world. lol